Two months ago in late May I sent an email to Roosh, whom I haven’t spoken to in several years, as we never knew each other well. At the time he hadn’t fully made known he had become a Christian, so I have delayed posting this. At this point he isn’t being subtle anymore.
This is Austin Martin / Blair Naso, who used to write for your website several years ago. I live in St Louis now.
Some of my readers (and one in particular) have been emailing me that you’ve converted to Orthodox Christianity. I’ve told them that you haven’t said anything conclusive yet. I just saw your God Pill forum post and Eulogy article. I’m still not convinced, because you haven’t outright said it, but obviously you have thought a lot about it.
I feel like I should say something, but I don’t know what. I’ll link to a blog post of mine you may feel helpful, but I don’t know what words you need to hear or if there are any words you need to hear.
I just felt like I should reach out. You can ignore this if you want.
You recently wrote that modern life is AIDS and posted one of those pictures that reminds me why I’m not a white nationalist. The Bible says “the wages of sin is death” (Romans 6:23), and I think that’s what’s happening to our society. We’ve chosen to prioritize pleasure at any cost, and the result is a dying civilization.
We kill our unborn children physically, and if they survive, then we kill our children emotionally and spiritually through the school system, all so that we can have money and careers. The other day at work, this-24 year-old divorcee said she was glad she didn’t have any kids because she can spend her money on herself.
I don’t need to tell you how self-destructive the homosexual lifestyle is. And yet that’s become our nation’s highest value. It’s more than the media — the city governments push the normalization. Many cities try to ban Chick-fil-a merely because the owner said he didn’t support gay marriage when asked point blank in an interview. In no way does the business actually discriminate against gay employees.
You spent your life initially looking for success in careers and sex, and when you found it didn’t exist, you began looking for the good and beautiful in a humanistic sense. But it seems you’re realizing that doesn’t exist either. The good and beautiful cannot exist without something by which to measure it against. Otherwise, good and beautiful is just an opinion.
The only thing that can provide the satisfaction you are looking for is Jesus Christ, because He is the only thing that can make order of all the bad in the world.
The whole paragraph I quoted above in Romans 6 says,
20 For when you were slaves of sin, you were free in regard to righteousness. 21 What fruit did you have then in the things of which you are now ashamed? For the end of those things is death. 22 But now having been set free from sin, and having become slaves of God, you have your fruit to holiness, and the end, everlasting life. 23 For the wages of sin is death, but the gift of God is eternal life in Christ Jesus our Lord.
So before you lived a hedonistic, naturalistic worldview, and the Christian idea of becoming Christlike wasn’t relevant. That’s verse 20. But now you’ve progressed to verse 21, that you see that that lifestyle was fruitless and you’re embarrassed of it. You understand how the standard modern prescription for life ends in death, in every sense of the term. You thought travelling the world banging beautiful women was freedom, but now you see that it was a different kind of slavery.
The next step, then, is to advance to verse 22, that you become a slave to God, so that you can now produce fruit which will lead to actual righteousness and eternal life. Verse 23 summarizes, that you can choose death and sin, or you can choose eternal life with Jesus Christ, but there is no middle ground.
This righteousness is the self-improvement you have actually been looking for, and it happens on a deeply ontological level. It’s not just being nice — it is a total change in how you view every smallest decision.
This world is torture. I hate it. I’m glad you had a close family, but like many people in the Manosphere, I did not have that blessing. I hate the television, I hate the music, I hate how we’ve created a society of lonely people, and I hate how there’s nothing I can do to change it.
The only comfort I have is that one day, when everything ends, whatever is crushing me today will seem like the smallest concern, like a child who cries because his fingers prune in the bathtub.
Karl Marx said that this is just an opiate. Liberals claim that Christians focus on heaven because they can’t process the troubles of the earth. I think that’s a fair question to ask. The answer is that there is no fixing the world. Without the foundation of living for the next life, all we have is living for this life, which results in the picture in your “Modern Life is AIDS” article.
The secularist makes this criticism, and yet he does the same thing. His highest ethic is the avoidance of suffering, and so this is what all of our social discourse is about. What the secularist cannot consider is the value of suffering. That suffering can build character is irrelevant, because the secularist has no objective standard of character to build towards. His only moral is “Don’t harm other people, unless it’s kind of inconvenient”.
This void is filled with existentialism, in which you force the banality of life to have a meaning it doesn’t. This is why people claim they love their job, when all it is is processing insurance claims, and then spend $200 on the weekends eating out trying to entertain themselves. Obviously they don’t love their job, but they have to delude themselves that they do.
Religion might be the opiate of the masses, but the masses need an opiate. But even then, I don’t think opiate is the right word. Religion, if done correctly, just gives you a different perspective. Opiates deaden your senses and numb you, and that is a far better description of Marvel movies, television, pop music, and anything else on the endless buffet of distractions our society offers. I think pornography is a far more effective opiate of the masses than religion.
Therefore, if you don’t have anything to live for, because you see the naturalist philosophy of our society for what it is, then you can at least live for the Second Coming of Christ.
Revelation 21:4 And God will wipe away every tear from their eyes; there shall be no more death, nor sorrow, nor crying. There shall be no more pain, for the former things have passed away.” 5 Then He who sat on the throne said, “Behold, I make all things new.” And He said to me, “Write, for these words are true and faithful.” 6 And He said to me, “It is done! I am the Alpha and the Omega, the Beginning and the End. I will give of the fountain of the water of life freely to him who thirsts. 7 He who overcomes shall inherit all things, and I will be his God and he shall be My son.
Most people see that as an opiate. But for someone like me who has endured innumerable pain and disappointment, that’s hope, and it’s the only hope possible. If you’ve lost your faith in people, you can at least take hope in the eternal life.
All things will be new. The laws of nature, the way animals interact with each other (“the wolf will lay down with the lamb” Isaiah 11:6), the priorities people have, how people interact with each other, what emotions you feel. Everything will be new for those who have chosen to be the slave — and now son — of God.
The next verse shows the opposite.
8 But the cowardly, unbelieving, abominable, murderers, sexually immoral, sorcerers, idolaters, and all liars shall have their part in the lake which burns with fire and brimstone, which is the second death.”
I think it’s interesting that in this passage, the focus on those who go to hell are not individual sins but character traits. The cowardly, the faithless (as some translations put it), the abominable, those who value short-term pleasure over the long-term good (murderers and the sexually immoral), and those who try to subvert the nature of reality (sorcerers, idolaters, and all liars) will not spend eternity with the One who created all goodness and beauty.
These are all traits of the secular left-wing. When you think of the secular left, you think of people with no loyalty, who build their values based on others’ expectations, who obsess over meaningless pop culture, who can look at hard empirical data (about race, sex, the sexes, etc) and outright deny it, who are spiteful and petty in the name of compassion, and who only do good things so that others will see it (i.e, virtue signaling)
These people will burn in hell, because they hate God and actively oppose all reality. They oppose anything actually good or beautiful so that they can declare anything to be good or beautiful. Given the choice, they would rather live in hell than in heaven, and so that’s how they live their lives. They hate goodness and beauty, so why would God force them to spend eternity with the Source of all goodness and beauty?
Recently I wrote a long rambling post about how WordPress banned Heartiste (skip halfway down to the section with the video).
I made a point that many Manosphere writers catch a glimpse of God and decide the cost is too high. But they can’t go back, and so they become bitter and cold-hearted. This encounter-and-then-rejection of God, despite whatever nominal acceptance they loudly claim on their livestream, has totally changed them. I didn’t name names, but I was especially thinking about [redacted].
I’m praying that the same doesn’t happen to you and Heartiste, because I think both of you are really waking up to the true reality of the world, that there must be a God who provides an absolute standard to base your life upon.
Ultimately, though, this is a choice. Christianity is not merely something you believe or a team you are on. It’s not just a social philosophy about how to build a better America. It is not making an agreement that you’ll abstain from certain fun behaviors that everyone else gets to do.
Truth is a Person that you accept to totally subject every part of your life to in the hope of a future life where “there shall be no more death, nor sorrow, nor crying”. That subjection is a choice you actively make, both in the short term and every day. It is a constant choice to submit yourself to the reality of the world instead of trying to remake it for your own happiness.
Pontius Pilate had the opportunity to ask God any question he wanted, and he clearly saw that Jesus was special; yet he was dismissive and cowardly, ultimately handing Jesus over to the mob. The rich young ruler, who had kept all the external rules, walked away disappointed because the cost was too high. Judas Iscariot had no lack of opportunity. Herod allowed John the Baptist to speak freely and even listened to him, until a stripper forced him to make a decision.
The Centurion at the cross saw all the same things as Pontius Pilate, and he came to the conclusion that this man must be the Son of God. History remembers him as the martyr Longinus.
His reply, and I don’t think he would be upset at me publishing this, was:
Thank you for this email. It’s a lot to take to heart, and I will contemplate your words. You are the second man is as many days to send me Romans 6:20-23. I do believe God “sends” me information through other men, so I have no doubt that passage applies to me.
I’m working on many articles which describe what happened to me, but as of now I can tell you I am an Orthodox Christian and am attempting to do what is right, no matter the worldly cost. There will be no half-measures. Those who I thought were friends will now see me as an enemy, but so be it.
I want to stress that I think it’s really really important that we don’t do any kind of grandstanding as though we just won a trophy convert celebrity. There’s been a lot of issues, in all veins of American Christianity, of making a big deal every time a famous person converts to one’s sect.
A few years ago a C-list TV star joined the Orthodox Church, and almost immediately he had all kinds of speaking engagements at Orthodox conferences, even though being a movie star isn’t rally a Christian profession. I’m not upset at that particular celebrity, since he’s just doing what he was asked. I have a problem with the archdiocese that put him on a pedestal just because he’s famous.
I am certain that people in the Orthodox Church will try to do this to Roosh. He seems like he has the maturity to handle that, and he isn’t giving details (as far as I can tell) on what parish he is attending (nor did I press him on the issue). There’s also the possibility that they’ll treat him like Matthew Heimbach. The way the late Fr Peter Gillquist, a reformed cult leader, twisted Scripture and Tradition to save his reputation was just horrendous and blasphemous regardless of what you think about Heimbach.
So any freewheeling traditionalist wanting to become an Orthodox Christian will have some landmines to traverse. Four pieces of advice I would give:
- ROCOR has a lot of room for traditionalism, but they are a big ball of chaos, and I’ve lost all respect and benefit of the doubt for ROCOR (regardless of the very good individuals I’ve met).
- The GOA generally doesn’t police its members, priests have a lot less authority, and they don’t allow a lot of the … wackiness … you find in other jurisdictions, so the Greek Church is my personal preference.
- Be very picky to which priest you go to confession. Some priests use the sacrament as a weapon.
- Don’t listen to Ancient Faith Radio, except for Kh. Krista West and Fr. Josiah Trenham.